They say pain is a motivator…

They must not know what motivation is

They say fear is a motivator…

They must have never been truly afraid

I wake up in the morning and

Pray to god on my knees

I ask for him to be with me

I always say please.

As soon as I leave

The thoughts creep in

You are a worthless human

They come from deep within

Your father doesn’t love you

You are a failure as a father

You suck at relationships

Why do you even bother

As hard as I try

To block the voices out

They haunt my spirit

They fill my heart with doubt

So I know deeply

My portion of pain

Fear guides me through

The endless torment of self disdain

So, am I motivated?

Just to pray and that’s really it

Because without God in it

My life would truly be shit