Sometimes my hands hurt

From reaching into broken mechanical devices

Sometimes my life hurts

From spending too much time in my vices

I don’t want anyone to think

I am incapable of truly being happy

But where relationships are involved

I attract crazy and end up unhappy

I get sucked in to

Her beauty and disregard her insanity

Then when my vision becomes clear

I want to return to humanity

But alas I get lost in my emotions

I get hurt and tossed around and broken

So maybe when things hurt I should be more cautious

Instead of diving deeper into her turbulent ocean

When my hands hurt

It Is just a part of the life I choose

When my life hurts

I have to ask…

Do you actually enjoy the abuse?