freedom

Adrift

I am not looking

For anything

There is a solace

In the silence

I feel as if I am in a blank space

From emotional content

That which I feel is

Superseded by a blank space

Full of questions

What is next

It is like being in a field of debris

After a tornado has ripped everything in sight to shreds

There are a few things still in place

Friendships and work to be done

All else has been washed away by a

Gail force wind

Here i stand

Looking over the outcome

Realizing how much I enjoy it

Existing in the blank spaces

Being without

Leaves me powerless

Without power, without responsibility

Resting now, after the storm

Adrift

Paradox

You woke up this morning early

To get a head start on the day

Maybe to stock up some money

So, you have something hidden away

You put in the hours

You’re dedicated to your work

You tell yourself with enough money

I can finally be free

But in the meantime, I am tired

And suffering,

Do I have to wait for retirement

So, I can finally have time for me?

Your freedom isn’t really

If all it does is bind you

Even pure light is darkness

If all it does is blind you

Memories handcuff too

When all they do is remind you

That everything is a paradox

And the paradox will always find you

Overt your eyes, that’s what the voice in my head says

Then I can’t help it, they meet yours and I know.

You are breathtaking beauty, deep intelligence, emotionally present.

Your spirit calls to mine for some reason

My heart isn’t some battlefield, or a junkyard

It is full of emotion and love

I have been stuck in this place where everything is locked behind

Iron gates and cement and rebar

My eyes call to you, and your eyes answer

All they say is let me out

I am so sick of this place

I want to get to know you

And touch you and be free

It is a hard thing to take responsibility for locking yourself in

It’s not the others fault, you did this

Your eyes call to me

They say come out and play

Be free.

That is what you are to me.

Freedom