religion

Motivation

They say pain is a motivator…

They must not know what motivation is

They say fear is a motivator…

They must have never been truly afraid

I wake up in the morning and

Pray to god on my knees

I ask for him to be with me

I always say please.

As soon as I leave

The thoughts creep in

You are a worthless human

They come from deep within

Your father doesn’t love you

You are a failure as a father

You suck at relationships

Why do you even bother

As hard as I try

To block the voices out

They haunt my spirit

They fill my heart with doubt

So I know deeply

My portion of pain

Fear guides me through

The endless torment of self disdain

So, am I motivated?

Just to pray and that’s really it

Because without God in it

My life would truly be shit

Not alone

Somewhere…

Deep within my soul

Lives a very old man

He sits and watches

My whole life span

He never intervenes

Just sits and watches

Supporting me silently

Through all of my choices

Sometimes he speaks up

Only if I really ask

But he only whispers

Then I complete my task

Other times in my life

He speaks through others

Using words of Love

From my sisters and brothers

Who is this old man,

Deep down in my soul?

I can only tell you this…

I am not alone.

Faith

Traveling through life blind,

The only way to know, is to feel…

Fears cannot be conquered by

Lifting your heels.

I want to be inspired

To be able to turn coal into diamonds

Then I remember what time says

Because of me, you are a blind man

I reach into the dark,

Hoping to feel something I know

The dark reaches into me

My heart freezes, like rain into snow

Sometimes it all seems pointless

When you can’t see the way

Then a voice speaks…

There is light at the end of the tunnel,

But you need to have Faith